Less Than 365 Days til The College Life

Thinking of college just gives me the chills. I fear it and yet get excited at the same time. Now it seems like everyone goes to college. There is the theory of the American dream. That going to college gives the same effect as the pioneers going west. When you go to college you are more likely to get a better job. And with a better job comes more money. And as it seems money makes the world go round.
Well at least that is how society makes it seem. And to my parents it isn’t even an option. I am going to college. I want to go to college so it does not make a difference. I know that my parents would love for me to get a full ride to a fantastic school. I currently have a 26 on my ACT. That is pretty good. But that score not great. Or they would like me to go to the local community college. In any other area I would be okay going to a community college. But I have taken some dual credit courses and realized that would not be the path for me. It would save us lots of money but I hate that school in its entire entirety.
Thinking about schools is hard, long, and treacherous. I have no idea what scholarships to apply for. And I have no clue what schools I want to go to. I have no clue when I can go and visit schools and I need to do that. I cannot just go to a school before I even check any out. How will I know that it is the perfect match?
I wish it just came simply. I wish that I was just able to pick a school and that it would be free. But it is not like that. And I cannot pay for college with my own money because I do not have a job. And I have such difficulties finding one. I have no idea why. I have applied to thirteen places in the past year. No place seems to want to hire me. Why? I have no clue. I am getting extremely frustrated. Everyone around me seems to be able to get a job real easily and I just seem to be having a large difficulty. It really is bothering me. I don’t plan on just blowing my money. I plan on saving it for college or using it to pay for me to take a trip to New York to be in the Macy’s Day parade. But clearly nothing is happening. Why can I not get a job? I really need one! And apparently I am part of the 7% that cannot get a job.

But even people that go to college have difficulty getting a job. There are many that graduate neck high with student loans and no means to pay them off. I don’t want that to be me. Maybe I’ll be the lucky one who makes it.